Well hello everybody! 2015 is around the corner and the festive season that is Christmas is drawing to a close and I thought now would be a good time to reflect on 2014.
A lot has happened this year, some stuff that I hated and that made me really sad like the whole anxiety uni stuff. But some stuff that made me so happy, like seeing and meeting some of my favourites, getting closer to my internet friends so I’m now being able to call them my best friends, starting my blog again, learning to appreciate my family.
When I was a child I didn’t even realise that one day the year would be 2014, and now I can’t believe it’s nearly over, this year has been a rollercoaster and I’ve changed a lot but now I’m even more excited for what’s happening over 2015. Plans are already being made with internet friends and I’m planning for more favourites meetings/live dates and I cannot wait!

I hope you all had a good 2014, and I hope 2015 is even better!
I’m going to leave you with this quote, I hope it inspires you, as much as it inspires me.

“You’ve got to live for today and enjoy life, because you never know what’s going to happen tomorrow” Dave Myers (off’ve the Hairy Bikers)


Collab with Vicky!

Well hello, I am feeling so ill guys but I can’t let my lovely friend Vicky down! We are doing a Christmassy collab! I hope you like it! (Here’s her blog! )

1) What is your best Christmas memory?
I’ve been lucky, all my Christmasses have been good! Add this to my bad memory and you have me with an inability to remember a best memory!

2) What time will you be waking up on Christmas morning?
Probably 8 or 9am, depending on my illness *violin plays*

3) What is the last thing you do on Christmas day?
Watch TV then sleep! Exciting life!

4) One Christmas wish?
My family and I having the best Christmas!

5) Last Christmas song you listened to?
Mulled Wines! Which if you don’t know is Radio 1 DJ Greg James and his newsreader friend Chris Smith’s song! LOVE IT!

6) Christmas drink of choice?
Shloer or cider!

7) What’s top of your Christmas list?
A new hairdryer, how exotic!

8) Do you top the tree with a star or an angel?
Neither, my family are rubish with decorations! I want a star though!

9) If you could be any character from any Christmas film, who would you be?
You’re all going to hate me but I genuinely have no idea, I don’t watch any Christmas films

10) Favourite Christmas TV special?
MIRANDA! or Top Gear!

The hairstressers…

I went to the hairdressers yesterday and I realised that everytime I go, the same things happen, obviously I leave with less hair than I came in with, that’s the point of a hair cut, but I’ve realised that there’s a routine of awkwardness that is embedded in the haircut procedure:

  • Comments
    The hairdresser always makes a comment about how thick my hair is “ooh isn’t your hair thick” “wow you have a lot of hair” YES I KNOW IT’S THICK IT’S MY HAIR! What do they expect me to say “oh my god, I never realised, thank you for pointing this out for me”
  • The hair wash
    There are several things about the hair wash that bother me
    1- the water is either too hot or too cold and because you’re so British and scared of confrontation when they ask “is the water okay” you grit your teeth and say “yes it’s great” when on the inside you’re crying
    2- when they lean over you to wash your scalp you end up being able to see straight up their sleeves or down their tops, and you have no idea where to look
    3- WHERE DO YOU PUT YOUR HANDS?! Do you rest them on your lap, or on your stomach or by your sides? Do you cross your hands or hold them as if you’re praying? It’s all very complicated, far too complicated…
    4- sometimes the sink thing is at a weird angle and you end up spraining your neck but when they ask if you’re okay, you say “yes thank you”
  • The mirror
    I hate having to look at my own face for an hour, you stare at it picking out all your faults. I once pulled a face to myself and at that exact moment the hairdresser looked at me. Horrific.
  • The clips
    My hairdresser, in order to cut my hair one layer at a time, pins my hair out of the way using the pinchy clip things, this is all well and good but she puts them in the most annoying places, I end up with hair stabbing my eye, going up my nose or in my ear, or all three at once, and I can’t move my hands to remove the hair because I’ll end up ruining my hair cut so I sit there trying not to cry and not to sneeze. I end up trying to blow the hair out of the way which makes me look like I’m weird
  • The brushing and combing
    I have very knotty hair because it’s so thick and wavy, so when the hairdresser is brushing it or combing it I always feel like I should be apologising for the number of times she gets the comb stuck
  • The offering of drinks
    Why do they offer you drinks? They always offer me either tea, coffee, water and orange juice, and a number of times I ask for water, this is an error. You have to sit still for a haircut. Which means if you put the glass or mug on the shelf, you can’t actually access it because you can’t move forward to drink it, which would annoy the hairdresser, then there’s the option of holding the mug or glass in your lap, but that can risk hair falling in your drink and ruining it. You can’t win
  • The hairdryer
    The hairdryer is a massive problem for me, because the air is always so hot that it feels like it’s burning your scalp, and it’s even worse when they are blow drying the hair around your ears, not only does that burn but it also makes you go deaf, it’s a nightmare.

Oh look, I’ve written yet another list, lucky you (I’m so sorry)

The Christmas Tag!

Ho ho hollo to you (do you see what I did there, Christmas reference).
Todays blog post is going to be a little different as it’s a festive tag! My lovely friend Vicky tagged me in her amazing blog ( I hope this link works, if not copy and paste it into your browser, it’s well worth a read!) so here it is, I hope you enjoy it!

1. Do you like to stay in your PJ’s or Dress up for Christmas?
Well, because on Christmas my family go out for a long countryside walk, we tend to just wear normal clothes during the day, we’re not particularly fancy! Although we do spend the morning and evening in our PJs!

2. If you could only buy one person a present this year, who would it be?
This is a really hard question! I feel like I should say my dad because he’s been really helpful with uni and financey stuff which I would cry about if I had to do it alone!

3. Do you open your presents on Christmas Eve or Christmas Morning?
Christmas morning! I don’t understand how anyone doesn’t do it on Christmas morning! My mum always tells me not to open presents from friends until Christmas day, which is annoying as I hate the wait and always feel rude going “thank you” then putting their gift to me in my bag..

4. Have you ever built a Gingerbread house?
I think I did once in primary school… I have no recollection of when, where or why but I remember a gingerbread house when I was a child… unless this was some weird dream…

5. What do you like to do on your Christmas break?
HAHAH break. I try and get as much work done before Christmas eve and day so I can actually enjoy myself! Sleep is also great! I love a lay in!

6. What is your favourite Christmas meal or treat?
Pigs in blankets! I also love chocolate logs! I now want all the pigs in blankets and chocolate logs

7. What’s your favourite holiday movie?
Well I’m not a big watcher of films as my family watch a lot of Christmassy tv, but I do love watching The Muppets Christmas Carol and films like Johnny English!

8. Candy Canes or Gingerbread Men?
It depends, I have to be in the mood for them, I never look forward to eating them, I’d rather have cake or crisps(no surprises there). But if I had to have one I’d probably have a gingerbread man…. or 3

9. Have you ever made a snowman?
I’m ashamed to say I haven’t, not a full size one anyway! I have made mini ones in the past but nowadays I don’t like walking on freshly laid snow, I think it looks too nice to ruin, so I tend to avoid walking on the garden so it stays looking perfect!

10. Which do you like better, Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?
Oooh hard one! I think I like Christmas Eve more! I always find the anticipation really fun, Christmas Day sometimes feels too stressful and rushed!

11. White light or Coloured lights?
Personally, I prefer white, they look so elegant, but my family have both so I have grown to love our multicoloured lights!

I hope you enjoyed this tag! I shall be back next week wih Vicky again with a collab (oooh I hear you cry) but you may see me before then so be prepared!

Reasons why I’m a fail: I’m a messy eater

I love food, especially the unhealthy junk food, truth be told, I am a really fussy eater, 95% of vegetables make me feel physically sick and I’m too scared to try most new foods, so me saying that I love food is wrong. I should really say, I love junk food.

Despite this deep, deep love I have a problem with food. I can’t seem to eat it properly.

Chocolate is a nightmare because it melts, and when it melts it get’s all over my fingers and my face, it’s even ended up in my hair, down my top and on my legs in the past (I don’t know how) so in any situation where I am in public and have chocolate to eat I go through a little routine, I try and get as much chocolate in my mouth at once, I then hide my mouth with my hands, I have to do this for about 5 minutes while I’m trying to eat the chocolate and to ensure my face is not covered in the stuff, it’s a bloody nightmare.
Anything that can make crumbs will make crumbs if I eat it. I get crumbs everywhere. I end up sitting in the crumbs which then embeds the crumbs into my trousers. I end up getting crumbs down my top which is never fun and is surprisingly scratchy. I end up with crumbs in my hair and due to my hair being thick I end up losing the crumbs in my hair and I’ll find them hours later like “oh look, there’s that cake I had for lunch lovely”
Anything you need to eat with a spoon ends up falling or dripping off the spoon and onto my top, the number of times I’ve ended up with soup down my top is embarrassing…
I love pasta and spaghetti, especially in a restaurant, however I am always reluctant to order it because the sauce is quite watery which means it can get sprayed everywhere, usually across my face, the table and the people around me, I don’t want to re-live wiping sauce off my mums arm again…

No wonder why no one asks me on any dates

Reasons why I’m weird

This blog post is going to be another list, what a surprise! Only this time it’s going to be about the things I’ve noticed I do, that make me really weird…

  1. I like pins and needles
    I don’t know why this is but when I feel pins and needles approaching, I will deliberately not move my foot just so I can feel the full force of pins and needles, in my eyes the tingley sensation is amazing (that sounds weird). When I do finally get them, I stomp my foot around just so I can make the feeling worse, this is probably so bad for my circulation but oh well.
  2. Food
    I eat some weird food combinations, such as toast and ketchup, bread rolls and ketchup or salad cream, I’ll only eat broccoli with mint sauce and when I eat ice cream I have to stir it for ages so it’s whippy, I don’t understand how people can eat it when it’s so hard (okay that also sounds weird)
  3. Walking problems
    I cannot walk in a straight line, my balance is awful meaning I tend to walk into the person I’m walking with, to the point where I’m rubbing against them (this sounds weird too why do I do this) my new uni friends are yet to get used to this so they tend to push me away while telling me to piss off when I end up walking into them. I don’t know why I can’t just walk next to someone, like a normal person, I’m scared that one day I’ll be walking with someone on a cliff and I’ll accidentally push them off..
  4. ASMR
    This is a relatively new concept but it stands for Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response and it’s that tingley/shivery feeling you get on your scalp and down your spine when you hear a certain noise. Not everyone feels this but I’ve recently realised that I have a few “triggers” these being whispering (especially ear to ear), tuning forks (no I didn’t know what these were either and I’ll be honest I still don’t), the sound of pages turning, the sound of someone having a back massage (this makes me sound creepy I promise it’s not) and the sound of tapping. This is something I’ve been listening to as I go to sleep and I think it really does help you relax and fall asleep a lot easier. I’ve also realised it’s good with anxiety.
  5. The dark
    I used to be terrified of the dark, so much so that I had a little night light. Nowadays I’m still scared of the dark but not as badly as I was, I actually hate sleeping when it’s bright, but I do need some light in my room. And this light comes from the window. I have to have my curtains slightly open (not a euphemism) but they have to be open in a certain way because I get very scared that I’ll turn to the window and see a face staring at me, even though no one would climb a ladder to stare at me in my sleep, well I hope they wouldn’t…
  6. Feeling others emotions
    If I care about you enough or know you well enough then I sometimes have the ability to read emotions through messages, like text or tweets etc, so if you say “I’m okay” and you’re not, I can sense you’re not and I’ll try and help. I don’t know how this happens, I think people find it weird when I message them like “I can sense you’re not okay”… it makes me sound like a weirdo
  7. Innuendos and euphemisms
    I am a big fan of these, but they tend to happen to me all the time whether accidentally, just like in this post and just me being intentionally disgusting in general.

I hope you don’t find me too weird because of this post… you probably will…oh