I’m going to be honest with you all, my mood lately has been… changeable. One minute I cannot stop smiling, the next I’m barely able to lift my head up. My anxiety has changed slightly and my whole life is in a liminal state and is so dependent on external sources that I feel lost.
I thought I would ask myself what would I do with a magic lamp? In order to make my days go by easier than they have been, I thought I would enlist the help of a magic lamp and a magical Genie. I get “selfish” three wishes, and here they are:
I wish for the ability to be able to do maths. I want to feel confident with maths, I want to understand how to do percentages, I want to understand how to calculate the best pension scheme for me, I want to know what it feels like not to have to triple check your sums on a calculator.
I wish for my anxiety to stop messing with my brain. I want my heart rate to beat to a normal pace when I’m about to see a friend. I want my breathing to stay normal when I’m talking to people I’ve never met. I want my hands to stop shaking when I’m addressing a crowd.
I wish for the ability to sing. I would love to be able to sing in the shower or in the car and not feel like an embarrassment. I don’t want to become a singer. I just like music.